research 1: life and the elusive question

The right tight question, is an elusive thing.The search for it began a few moons ago.The world was younger.We were not so cynical a.k.a non-adult.Fairy tales were not wrong.You could still get whatever you wanted.It was all awe.The shock was yet to come.The search for the right question involved low pay,masochistic rituals,irregular work hours,exceptionally moronic bosses and even worse environs.

At first,the search for the question was not all that obvious. In the first few day, i was being moulded into the local social heirarchy.As a new comer,non-PhD student who is equal to all, you are a Dexter(atleast thats what the boss makes you feel).However, in reality, you had the privilege of doing all the dirty work which no one else would do even under the breath of a drunk skunk's arse.Most of the jobs involved the posession of a zombie like composure and the mind of an amoeba.

Anyway, its a mysterious thing,that you eventually realise that what you actually need is a question.The realisation is due to the same processes powering the chomsky's universal grammer generator(ChUGG).Thus begins the search for the question,i.e research.


WHAT MAD PURSUIT:


In the early days when you still sweep clean, all energy-emotional,physical etc is thrown into the search.You go deep into the thoughts of men and the disembowelled carcasses of mice.'Of mice and men' holds a thoroughly different connotation to you.You start to notice that everyone in your lab resembles a mouse to varying levels.

Bacteria,Stem cells,Mice and incompetent men all confuse you.The earth rotates,the cells multiply, the experiments fail,the wise men talk and you are struck onto a rope,hanging over a large bowl of canteen soup, being chewed by a rat resembling chewbaca.Then, the questions fly:fast and thick.However, the questions asked are all the wrong ones.The first question is, "what is happening?.the second question or answer is "Oh! shit?"

As with all other systems, this also reaches equilibrium.The equilibrium is usually at the cost of relationships and all the other luggage which you never considered important anyway.Huh! then comes the realisation- that before the question is found, what needs to be found first is the importance of your own life.Stage one of the initiation is complete.you see a big arrow-YOU ARE HERE!

In reality,you dont know where 'HERE' is.The world is still going in circles.I am still awaiting the question.